Do not leave me

Oh! Lovely Smile, I thought that this day would never come. I’m not ready to say goodbye, but I have no choice because you already left. How am I supposed to love myself now when you were the reason I didn’t look at mirrors and cry? You made my big nose and my small eyes look better, and you took away all the attention from my fat cheeks. Now all I have left from you are those wrinkles around my mouth that once made you look shinier, but now they only remind me of what I lost. My confidence resided on you, and when you left, I thought that you wouldn’t take it, I thought that you would give it to something else, but you didn’t because there was nothing pretty enough to hold it.  
When people told me the braces were going to hurt, I’m sure they never meant it emotionally. I wish that the pain they cause made me starve for even a week and not made me cry whenever I stare at my reflection. At first, I thought nothing was going to change, and for the first few days, it didn’t, but then a month passed and I started to unconsciously cover my mouth with my hands. Then the second came with the insecurity to open my lips whenever I wanted you to appear. Finally, today, in the third month, I realized that when I talk, you are not there. My lips simply move and try to articulate words. They are unable to express happiness and excitement anymore unless I tell them to.
What am I now that I lost the only beauty that I owned? I’m just a combination of ugly parts that are not supposed to be together, but because of my lack of fortune, they all found each other on my phiz. I’m aware that you’re deemed to come back in 15 months, but what if you don’t? What if It is too late? I’m frightened that I’ll embrace your absence so that I can fake the self-reliance you gave me. I don’t want to lose you because that implies that I lost the only decent fragment of myself.